Okay,  7 day fast begins today.
All you ladies, here is the agenda:
Green tea
and Lemon Water
thats it
Im gona throw in some cayenne for dinner
and perhaps a celery stick just to trick the body...
let meknow whose in

I passed out in Disney world. Why? I am not sure because I did EAT that morning.
I felt watched like a hawk. My sister watches every thing I put in my mouth, almost like a competition... like, who eats more...she wanted a doughnut so she tried to force me to eat one (I put mine in a napkin and tossed it) but its rediculous.
I came back, and had my period... And I am 4 pounds heavier. How is that possible? I walked about 30,000 steps a day! Does anyone else gain weight during their period???
I'm pretending to be on weight watchers... Staying on 10 points a day max.... just to log food so my mother will think im eating. But I am a wreck about the 4 lb weight gain. I usually don't get my period... so I am not sure what the weight gain is around that time of the month. Can anyone help me?

Also, I was watching this model show... super thinspiration last night. This week and next I'm going to limit myself, and then shop shop shop, get a size smaller in everything so that then, when I DO have the weight gain I'll know....
How is everyone??

Okay, has anyone read this book yet???
This is a life saver. Any time you feel the need to eat junk RE READ this book. They sell it at amazon.com...

here are some major tricks I have been doing that NO ONE NOTICES...Ive lost 4 lbs this week.... I go on holiday with the boyfriend at the end of Aug....so those 10 lbs have to go FAR FAR AWAY!!

1. at breakfast... pour a bowl of rice crispy cereal with soy milk. Cut up an apple, peach etc into it. Eat only the apple and peach. IT looks as though you are eating the cereal, and they stop looking at you after a while. Also, it flies down the sink drain and no one will know. Just wash the bowl and your set!!

2. At lunch,or dinner if you order a salad out, order chicken on it. Then, begin to say "Theres alot of fat on it" and slowly start to put the chicken pieces under the salad, and also, in a napkin. This way, you are only eating the iceberg lettuce (no cals) and the veges. 

3. Again, lunch or dinner (or even breakfast) take four eggs out of the fridge. (Ive even gotten a comment like... why the hell are you gona eat so many!) Then, use three egg whites, one egg yolk (The egg yolk turns the white yellow so it looks as though youve used the four eggs. Mix well... Then chop us mushrooms, onions, spinache(Alot) and scramble those eggs! When its done, pick out ONLY the veges (those actually slide out pretty easily without any remaining egg) So, you've eaten ONLY the veges!!! 

GET THE BOOK!! You can tell your family you are vegan and it helps. I PROMISE!!!

Hi Girls...
 Again I havnt been on here in along time. Almost a month... and guess why? Got caught. Gained 2 lbs. I still have 10 to lose to get to my 100 lb mark.
Before I went to florida, my boyfriend decided that he would tell me "Unless you gain 5 lbs we are not going. Im not gona have you have a heart attack on the ride"
I cried and begged and told him I was fine. But then he whipped out my blood results and well...How did he get them? Still do not know. So, I did what I do best. Gained 2 lbs, and started to stack on the clothing to make it look like more. He said I look "sickly" and to me, I look like im one thousand pounds.
We went to blizzard beach and I watched these disgusting fat women walk around in bikinis with all their wobbily bits hanging about. And I thought to myself...Is that what I look like? (I was wearing a tank and long board shorts...I used the "I thought this was the park with the surf boards" excuse).
What can I say? Im back. And I have to be sneakier and sneakier. I filled three bottles of regular soda with diet cola. I changed the cookies with sugar free low cal ones...that look like the real thing.
I dont know what to do though. Ive never seen him like that. And I know everyone is thinking the same thing...
Hope you are all okay... let me know, keep me updated!!

Hi,
I need help asap. You know that fast I was on for the last two weeks? I HAVE NOT LOST A LB!! What is going on?
Ive limited myself to only 250 a day and nothing...
Does anyone have a daily fast that I can follow for the next 15 days??? I go to fla on the 26th so i dont have much time and i really really have to do this...i can not go at this weight... please I am begging... i really am hysterical right now because in all my years this has never happened and no matter what my control is not working...
should i not eat anything? Should i just stick to liquids?! Please pleaseplease i need some advice asap...
please?

So, I used to literally be the queen of the fast. Ive tried everyone imaginable and yet today, I ruined it. I was doing so well also, only 220 cals until 4:00.
Then the dizzies started and oh boy... i got scared. Had a eggwhite omlet with peppers, onions and skim cheese (45 cals) and then a salad.... the dizzies didnt stop and i ended up eating a slice of foccocia.
I definitely went above the 500 cals today. And still feel so sick. Its terrible it really is.
I really dont know what to do this time.
I need to fast for the next 28 days. I feel like ive become something Im not. Like, I get scared from the dizzies.. but being aroud the chidren, it makes me nervous to feel that way infront of them.. is that normal?
Does anyone else seem to understand what Im going through?
I need uber support. And to the girls on my fast with me, GREAT JOB today I AM SO PROUD!!
Keep up the awesome work, and stay super strong...

So, my first days fast is going great...but we all know the first week is the easiest.
Anyone else who wants to join let me know... I have three so far...super strong and awesome girls!
Everything is about my parents seeing me eat at the last moment... like I have slimfast, but i use the wrapper with 1/4 of the bars... so it look slike i ate all of it...

Breakfast: 1/4 slimfast bar & dietsoda- 55 cal
Lunch: 1/4 slimfast bar & diet soda- 55cal
Thats about it so far :) yay
Total: 110 cals 

MAX: 500

So, so far I have two people to join me in my fast! Super awesome.
So the fast is from tomorrow, May 28- June 26th. I would do it till the 28th but I leave for FLA by then and I will need to up the cals in the heat to at least 600-650...
Anyone else in?
Let me know and we will e-mail support...
Iknow its been hard to stay away fro mmy moms baked goods, esp the food this weekend being memorial day and all...
Yay!
-Me

I am starting a fast on Monday. No more than 500 calories a day until June 26. Anyone interested in helping me out with this? Its a bit more than a month but welll worth it i believe.
Please let me know. I will give my aim sn and email for buddy support.
I need to lose 10 lbs by then think it possible?
Let me know!!
<3

So, basically, I have not been on in 3 weeks. The reason? I screwed myself. I used to be so much better at this and I do not know WHAT i am doing now.
I passed out after work walking the kids up the block. I woke up in the hospital and I KNEW what would happen next. They brought in the therapists, psychologists, etc. And now, everyone knows theres a problem. EVERYONE. 
I can't purge anymore. My voice is terrible from it and as a teacher, I need the voice. But now, EVERY MOVE I MAKE I am being watched. I do not know what to do now. 
I stil want to reach 100 *My goal in my head is 90 but that will never be able to happen* Because of the hospital, I am up to 115 lbs. So, 15 lbs shouldnt be that bad to lose right? Ughhh
I am sorry to those of yu who wanted to join me and I didn't get back to but that is why.
I need to do this. I have to get to 100, and I onlyhave 48 days till I can.
I am not going above 700 calories (I noticed that 700 is the ideal to eat around the family and make it look like I am eating ALOT espesiall if they think I am eating at work also)
Anyone willing to do the 700 calorie diet with me?

Okay so, 
I'm 5'2
what is a goal weight that I should be? I am 115 now and trying to go to 100 is that too high?
Ive been down to 85  but too obviously a ed to the fam...
help

Okay,
Heres what I need. I've been asking for super uber support over the last month...but please...I need you girls now more than ever..
My  boyfriend has just booked a vacation to Disney World...which means...water parks...hot babes... that I do not look like.
I joined Curves... and I have gone every day since I joined. Supposidly you burn 700 cal there in that half hour. I've been running on the squares like an animal (my mum says that people are lauging at me but I do not care...) to make sure I burn off even more...
I think ive been dehydrated though because by the second time on the circuit my brain hurts... lol..
But yeah... so I am leaving June 26. Thats only 2 months until I go. Now I NEED to drop my weight down to 100 lbs. I am at 118 (somehow gained weight...do we put on weight from our periods?) which means 18 lbs in the two months averaging 9 lbs a month which is not bad at 2 lbs a week you  know?
I just bought a bunch of short shorts, tight black dresses etc... and hot shoes for Pleasure Island. I'm hoping that if I lose enough weight, he won't even want to leave the hotel  at night! (yeah not with this body) Now, Im doing Curves every day and then on top of that , 100 cruches, 100 reverse crunches, 50 half squats, 50 full squats, and 1/2 hr of stretches.
What else is there to do???
Please help me out. I ate a bowl of cereal today and I'm hoping that will be enough to fight the dizzies. The cereal was about 250 calories which will be my total for the day otehr than water, tea etc...
Please
Please
Please
Please
Join my 2 month weight loss. If I get a bunch of us to do it together, it will be SO much easier! Please???
Let me know..
I need support asap...
-Me<3

Calories Eaten Today

grams  cals %total Total:   426

Wooo Hoo.And I can dothis for the rest of the week without having anyone bother me!!!
YAYYY!

I seemed to have gotten a bug. I was in the bathroom (with NO pills) right after I ate until this morning. It was wonderful. At first I felt terrible, and I seriously only ate a little bit of stuff...but knowing I ate it made me feel so sick....and then...BOOM sick as a dog.
Today all I have eaten is:

Crackers 60
Soup 90
Tea with splenda

YAYY
SO 5 crackers is only 60 calories...not bad at all.
If I pretend to be sick all week then I am fine!!
I joined curves
YAYYY workout!

yes i am totally a fat ass. I found myself being attacked by both my boyfriend AND my mother yesterday causing me to do the following:
eat the entire broccoli and spinache part of a pizza
eat a 100 calorie pack of brownie bytes
eat tortellini and brushetta
eat six sweedish fish
eat 5 m&ms
all in front of them s othat they will not suspect anything
yet... I FEEL LIKE I WANT TO KILL MYSELF NOW because I feel so fat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I totally probably hit 1,000 right?
UGH 896
I can not believe this
and now tomorrow all eyes will be on me
I HAVE TO BE CAREFUL
I am NOT gona eat all morning... and then just pick at diner
well maybe ill sleep late???
WHAT do I do? What do you guys do? Anything special? I have a rash cause I started drinking coffee again (caffeine makes myy body break out) so Im itchy and frustrated and so sick of hearing that I'm not eating...
meanwhile I am 115 lbs and still fat as hell... seriousyl... like... I am a size 4 but I look lik e a size 12...and my stomach is just so grose...and... my arms have hangyt skin... i cant
anyway...
HAPPY EASTER everyone....sorry for my ramble....
Much love to all...
Please comment... HELP me stay strong... please? I have until June 2 to go down to 100 lbs. And I KNOW i can do it but I have to be strong. I am going to see my ex and I just HAVE to look drop dead gorgeous...
then I go away with the fiance to disney and I want a hot picture of me in a bikini to send out in the holiday news letter!!!!!!!!<3

Vacation started today. I got a press pass to go to the Auto Show (My boyfriend is producer of a newspaper) and at 12:00 is this 5 star lunch, to make sure all the press says nice things about the auto show. When it comes to hundreds of people eating I feel so embarassed to not eat. So, I always eat a salad.. and no problem...except because of last night, I am worried...
Monday my boyfriend was rushed to a hospital because he passed out. Today at 6 we are taking him for more tests on his heart (Aand to think I would never date a overweight man ebcause of fear of having waht my mother had to go through with my dad...and yet here is a 2% bodyfat man having a heart problem) so, yesterday I took him to get a hair cut and he wanted to take me to eat. I of course started with how I did not feel well, etc and we went to this pizza place... I ate a sliver of pizza and told him it was too hard for my mouth.Well, later that night, he started with the "Your getting too skinny and obsessed with this calorie shit"
I of course jumped into defense mode and was like "Well you wouldnt date me if i was fat and im fine im just not hungry etc"
But today he is going to be staring at me to make sure I eat. I am living off salads because i kno  there is only like 45 calories in it... right?
Oh boy...
I'm being attacked on all ends AND IM A GROWN WOMAN!

Girl scout cookies came in today. And right away my father is sitting on the couch (he looks like the cartoon... i forget what it is called but its stewie i think is the kid...hes like the fat old man) and eats the entire box of thin mints. Okay.. he almost died 3 times already (strokes, heart attacks etc) but yet here he is non-stop eating. And they wonder why it is that i panic to eat anything over 600 calories. I CANT. I mean, seriously it is disgusting. I never want to be like him. Ihave ten pounds left until I am 100... but it seems to be getting harder and harder...
Does anyone else have the break out problem? Like my chin and my neck and chest are breaking out. I do not know why either. Its grose. I used to have beautiful skin... but now...grose.
Another thing I wanted to tell you... EAT GErBER! Its delicious. 25 calories for oatmeal, 25 for these yummy yummy snacks almost like cereal. 
Ive been  living on salad. It isnt fattening right? I kinda throw the chicken into a napkin when my mom isnt looking. but I think she is starting to suspect something. Oh well.
I am going for a walk. I got my dentist bill...400 bucks and another appt on Saturday. UGHHHH all from when I was younger...how dumb...purging lost my back teeth and all my front are ruined...
grrrr

I need severe strength to get me through my last ten pounds please...

I want to cut down to 500 a day but I need help..
A salad (ice berg) is how many calories?

today:

Calories Eaten Today
grams  cals %total Total:   287    Fat: 13  113  39%   Sat: 2  15  5%   Poly: 3  28  10%   Mono: 6  55  19% Carbs: 35  125  43%   Fiber: 4  0  0% Protein: 11  44  15% Alcohol: 1  7  2%

TEN POUNDS SINCE LAST WEEK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I have ten more to go!

So, the best place on the web... fitday.com. It totally tracks every single bite you eat so you do not have to drive yourself insane!!

ex:

Calories     352
Fat:	14	122	35%
Sat:	2	17	5%
Poly:	3	24	7%
Mono:	7	66	19%
Carbs:	55	189	54%
Fiber:	8	0	0%
Protein:	8	33	9%
Alcohol:	1	7	2%

it is so awesome. I have been staying under 500 since Sunday... and just over since last week. I am down to 115. So please if anyone has any pointers let mek now. I'm still getting tired at all times and I keep drinking coffee but it doesnt seem to want to help much...
Tried Caffine pills.. not working...

Keep up the hard work girls